To everyone who gave suggestions on my first journal, I just wanted to say thank you again (: I really appreciated all of the help. I did write it at a desperate time and was unsure of what to do, and I truly appreciated it more than you know.

I figured I should probably update since I've been so "silent" artwise. Basically, I've completely stalled. I haven't really drawn a thing this year. School had me so caught up and busy this year, and soon I'll be heading off to a university. With everything on my mind I've had a difficult time just sitting and drawing. I have a picture that's been 16 months in the making, and it's nowhere near finished. It's very large, and I've been so intimidated by it. I'm having such difficulty finding the inspiration to get back to doing digital art, when I do love it so much. It's always on my mind. I haven't even had photoshop on my computer for months. For about a year though I've been teaching myself with "How to Draw" books different methods of drawing to help improve my style, and also help me draw much faster than I have been. I've always hated how long it's always taken me just to draw one picture when such phenomenal artists can whip out something in hardly anytime at all. I would like to take commissions someday, but I'd hate for my client to have to wait so long just for a picture of mine. If I'm getting paid to do something I'd like to do it as fast as I can, but also have it still coming out like a lot of time was spent on it. I like the idea of raffles though, so when I get back into a consistent artsy mood I may try to do something like that, hopefully soon. I want to be able to take on the challenge of drawing different things and be able to give art to others at the same time

It may be hard for me to do any art digitally, though. I learned just a few days ago that I possibly have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in my drawing, writing, arm I do everything with arm. This isn't a recent problem. I've had it for nearly a year, and thought it was a shoulder problem the whole time, as my shoulder would burn, sometimes to agony, when sitting at the computer. It's as painful as it is annoying and worrisome. When I sit down to draw I'm usually fine, my arm can seem to tolerate that, but when I'm at the computer, it's too much. I'm in so much pain and my hand just becomes numb and tingly. I know I got it from where I work, where I'm constantly on a computer clicking a mouse about 100 times a minute for hours and hours a day >_< This is not the first hand related injury I've gotten from this job either. This means I could never survive a job at the computer In the meantime though, I'll try to post some photos of critters and weather while I try to get myself back into an artsy mood.

Hopefully soon I can get my arm fixed and I'll try to get on msn messenger. I haven't been on in over a year, and I'm not sure how active members on my list are anymore. I have so many people on my list it's hard for me to get on during the school months. I'll try to set aside time every so often to be on so I'm not "gone" for such long periods of time anymore (: I always feel like I leave folks on there hanging, and I just hate feeling like I'm letting people down, or that I'm avoiding them. That's not at all true. I've never changed my msn account, and don't plan to anytime soon (:

I also apologize to those I watch. I'm quite disloyal and have an enormous message backlog, slowly but surely I am getting to them, despite my arm. I probably deserve the suffering for that But I hope everyone's been having a great summer. Mine's been rather uneventful for the most part, but it's been a summer much needed. I just really wanted to update on why I haven't been as productive as I used to, as well as my arm condition.


And on a little geeky note, did anyone notice that in the Hurricane names for this season both of the names Danny and Sam are on there? The only problem though is that Sam's on there as a guy's name It's still amazing though XD I bet Danny's going end being a category 6 hurricane that slams into where I live and destroys everything... Cx

P.S. "In a Moment of Desperation" has just surpassed 6000 thousand views earlier today. I'm astonished by this. I almost never submitted it but knew Jenn would kill me if I didn't XD To think that when I started on it I was actually being made fun of and had lost a lot of confidence in doing it, especially since my first idea for it didn't work out. I still blush to this day when I see the comments on it. It's not my most faved picture, but I still never dreamed that it'd get the amount of notice it has. It shot my art confidence through the roof! I'm still speechless about it I can only hope I can whip out something half as good as that picture came out now XD