Coronadofwb

I look at my journal entries and can't believe, has it really been since 2013 since I last updated??

Hello All! I hope this journal finds each of you well. Thank you all for sticking around with me for so long.

So what has happened since all of this time has passed? I graduated with my first bachelors, fell very ill, found a job, had surgery and became well again, went back to school and graduated with my second bachelors, paid off my student loan, got the boot, found another amazing job, and bought my own house. I make it sound easy and simplistic but it was a whirlwind of emotion and just overall, tremendous stress, so I disappeared for a while. And while I was gone I see deviantart has changed so much. I can't even recall how to use the emoticons but that's what I get for disappearing for so long! 

The last time I was active on deviantart I was in the Danny Phantom community, which I have more or less "grown" out of, but still have a few pieces I would love to finish and post here, especially if folks would still love to see them. I plan to become more active, but be aware that I'm busy with a lot of reading and research as that is demanded of me at my current job, which I hope to make a career of.

Details: I currently work as an electrical engineer and struggle with a chronic illness as well as a hand injury to my primary hand, wrist and shoulder from years ago, so it's much harder for me to put art out. As a result, I no longer take art requests, trades or commissions. It is too much for me. Plus, there are many talented artists here at deviantart that would be happy to take a commission from any one of you to help them out. Please seek them out instead, I will even give a shout out if I feel necessary. 

If you're looking for me on other platforms, I'm really not active anywhere else. I deleted my tumblr after the heartbleed incident and have no intentions of going back, or using any other platforms aside from dA for the time being. This may change as my schedule settles down and my job becomes less demanding of me. Only time will tell so we will see what happens. I also have a graphic novel in the plans. It is currently a private project but we will see what happens with that when the time comes. More details as things move along.

Thank you for taking the time for reading this journal. Please let me know how each of you are doing if you wish, I would love to hear how things have been for my friends all of these years!

Hello all!

I know I have been pretty inactive here for quite a good while now, which was not my intention. I'm still around, and have not abandoned dA, nor do I plan to any time soon. Life can happen, and life has been very unkind to me for several years now. I had recently graduated with my Bachelor of Science degree earlier in 2012 which took up much of my time for the last few years. On top of the load I was dealing with something very personal and very difficult from late 2011 until late last year. I might be over said conflict now, but I just never know. And on top of this, some of you may know, I've been critically ill since August, and I've not been recovering, so my creativity has suffered as a result of a lot of emotional frustration, though not to say I haven't been drawing! However I won't get into such details here.

So, onto the topics of this journal now~

I have been asked quite a few times now if I take commissions, and in fact, I do! However, I'm currently working on one, with two other slots reserved, and after that I'm afraid I will have to close commissions, at least temporarily. I have started a very busy schedule this year, and until I at least have my time figured out, I will save the patient frustration of my customers who may have to wait a while for me to get my work done, on top of my illness, so it's just really not a good combo, but I'm thankful and honored for the commissions I've received, and I WILL get those done so don't worry! I'll also write up some commission guidelines and post those when I'm ready to receive more requests.

I have also gotten a tumblr, hmm, I don't even remember when now! I joined, posted a few things on the first day, and haven't been on since as I've been so darn busy/ill! But anyway, here's the address for those interested: Coro Tumblr

Here I hope to write updates on happenings, but as well as post commissions that I won't post here, and also works in progression for critiques and status updates, as well as just miscellaneous works. So be sure to check there for status updates, erm, hopefully weekly, maybe biweekly? I might be being hopeful myself! I'm new to tumblr and am still not quite sure how it all works quite yet, but I will try my hardest to at least inform those around me and not be such a sad hermit all of the time

Anyway, that's all I have until I can do the tumblr thing! Erm, sorry for the inactivity, t'was never my intention! But hopefully tumblr will help me make up for that. I do hope the lovely folk that still watch me are very happy and healthy. I think about my friends and all of you on here often. Please take care!

-Coro

… or more like the lack there of. It seems like for the first time in a long time I just want to sit and actually be able to draw, and pretend that things are normal in my life. I could always just sit down and do it, but as I approach my sketchbook my confidence just droops in an instant, and I turn away from it as if I was just insulted. I've never had so much trouble trying to do something as simple as drawing a picture. Shouldn't it beat this upper-level college work I'm constantly stuck with?? Current circumstances just add to this frustration, as of mid-late August I have been getting very ill, in freakish ways I never knew possible, because I was leased a unit infested with black mold (and yes, I'm still in this mold infested trap). I feel trapped, and all around just very unliked, as the powers-that-be of the unit seem very unsympathetic to my situation, and the fact that I've made two miserable trips to the ER in less than a month apart because of this, though I'm not surprised. So now the law has to get involved, blah blah blah, because of initiating circumstances, but I still feel in a way that I deserve this. For selfish reasons I got myself into this, because I wasn't strong enough to handle what the summer had for me (my current most recent deviation was a precursor to this; what I had to deal with). I just wish life had a rewind button sometimes (ok a LOT of times). My emotions have always gotten the better of me when it has come to decisions in my life, most of them being the very big, life-changing ones…

I've never liked dumping my problems online. I really hate to whine and whine and have people just feel sooo sorry for me, when they really shouldn't. We've all hit hard bumps in the road, and my problems are no worse or less worse than anyone else's. I got this weird poking sensation in my brain that I should at least mention the whatabouts especially since I've been very absent, from here specifically after promising manymany people I'd certainly be around more to be of assistance or a helping hand somehow, or just someone to talk to. I have felt very alone all year, and being so absent always bothers me, even though it happens so often. I always wonder if people see my profile and just go WTF??!1? Sometimes I just need a hard kick in the rear to remind myself that I'm an adult, and that considering, I should just know better by now and actually make an attempt to be this adult!

Sorry for raambleessz. I suppose I'm saying I would really like to just divebomb back into art, forgetting all of this and to just "rejoin" the community. It would no doubt help at the moment! I can't promise anything, though I will certainly do my absolute hardest to do what I can. Just gotta take that difficult first step, and to stop being such a coward about it. It's like you know you're so afraid of something, but you just don't know what, and it drives ya nuts, yet you can't get the feeling to shoo! GRUGGHRGH. I greatly under-appreciate this place. Because of it I have gotten to meet such amazing talented people of all ages, as well as some of the closest friends I've ever had from all over the world. I'm so humbled and honored to know them and see what they can do, or to even be part of their lives. Sometimes I forget the great impact this can have on lives, especially those that share the work they quite literally pour their heart and soul into, something that can be very difficult.

Anywho, to those who managed to read, a great big thanks!! (x Just writing this has helped a great load~

Just a final update quickie. I took the images I had in storage out. I had no idea that I had so many pictures in storage, and to be honest, I don't even remember why I stored them in the first place, so I took all of those out and are viewable by the public again (aside from some photos, which I'd like to watermark first). I've moved to school now at FSU, to study engineering and meteorology (I might even be making television broadcasts in my weather casting course ). Wish me luck there. I've been busy with the preparations for that for a while.

Artwise, I have two digital WIPs I'm working on, including a number of photographs. Once I figure out the whole photoshop enhancing bit you'll hopefully see those I do plan to be more active in the drawing field, so here's hoping things will work out and I can start drawing back up again. Still settling into my tiny little dorm (and I do mean tinyyyyy). Slowly getting to my dA messages, which are my first priority here over everything else Here's to what will hopefully be a nice, and more merciful, school year

Once I get my homework and class schedule worked out and depending on the amount of free time I have, I'll see if I can't get an art raffle started sometime I have been wanting to share/give art as a gift (simply because I'm just like that), and it'd also give me an excuse to draw different things and improve, and I'd also not feel as bad about requests because folks would win the chance for art fair and square, but it's pending right now. I'll be sure to update as soon as possible on the possibilities of that

To everyone who gave suggestions on my first journal, I just wanted to say thank you again (: I really appreciated all of the help. I did write it at a desperate time and was unsure of what to do, and I truly appreciated it more than you know.

I figured I should probably update since I've been so "silent" artwise. Basically, I've completely stalled. I haven't really drawn a thing this year. School had me so caught up and busy this year, and soon I'll be heading off to a university. With everything on my mind I've had a difficult time just sitting and drawing. I have a picture that's been 16 months in the making, and it's nowhere near finished. It's very large, and I've been so intimidated by it. I'm having such difficulty finding the inspiration to get back to doing digital art, when I do love it so much. It's always on my mind. I haven't even had photoshop on my computer for months. For about a year though I've been teaching myself with "How to Draw" books different methods of drawing to help improve my style, and also help me draw much faster than I have been. I've always hated how long it's always taken me just to draw one picture when such phenomenal artists can whip out something in hardly anytime at all. I would like to take commissions someday, but I'd hate for my client to have to wait so long just for a picture of mine. If I'm getting paid to do something I'd like to do it as fast as I can, but also have it still coming out like a lot of time was spent on it. I like the idea of raffles though, so when I get back into a consistent artsy mood I may try to do something like that, hopefully soon. I want to be able to take on the challenge of drawing different things and be able to give art to others at the same time

It may be hard for me to do any art digitally, though. I learned just a few days ago that I possibly have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in my drawing, writing, arm I do everything with arm. This isn't a recent problem. I've had it for nearly a year, and thought it was a shoulder problem the whole time, as my shoulder would burn, sometimes to agony, when sitting at the computer. It's as painful as it is annoying and worrisome. When I sit down to draw I'm usually fine, my arm can seem to tolerate that, but when I'm at the computer, it's too much. I'm in so much pain and my hand just becomes numb and tingly. I know I got it from where I work, where I'm constantly on a computer clicking a mouse about 100 times a minute for hours and hours a day >_< This is not the first hand related injury I've gotten from this job either. This means I could never survive a job at the computer In the meantime though, I'll try to post some photos of critters and weather while I try to get myself back into an artsy mood.

Hopefully soon I can get my arm fixed and I'll try to get on msn messenger. I haven't been on in over a year, and I'm not sure how active members on my list are anymore. I have so many people on my list it's hard for me to get on during the school months. I'll try to set aside time every so often to be on so I'm not "gone" for such long periods of time anymore (: I always feel like I leave folks on there hanging, and I just hate feeling like I'm letting people down, or that I'm avoiding them. That's not at all true. I've never changed my msn account, and don't plan to anytime soon (:

I also apologize to those I watch. I'm quite disloyal and have an enormous message backlog, slowly but surely I am getting to them, despite my arm. I probably deserve the suffering for that But I hope everyone's been having a great summer. Mine's been rather uneventful for the most part, but it's been a summer much needed. I just really wanted to update on why I haven't been as productive as I used to, as well as my arm condition.


And on a little geeky note, did anyone notice that in the Hurricane names for this season both of the names Danny and Sam are on there? The only problem though is that Sam's on there as a guy's name It's still amazing though XD I bet Danny's going end being a category 6 hurricane that slams into where I live and destroys everything... Cx

P.S. "In a Moment of Desperation" has just surpassed 6000 thousand views earlier today. I'm astonished by this. I almost never submitted it but knew Jenn would kill me if I didn't XD To think that when I started on it I was actually being made fun of and had lost a lot of confidence in doing it, especially since my first idea for it didn't work out. I still blush to this day when I see the comments on it. It's not my most faved picture, but I still never dreamed that it'd get the amount of notice it has. It shot my art confidence through the roof! I'm still speechless about it I can only hope I can whip out something half as good as that picture came out now XD